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room, turn for one, long appreciative glance at her, and then leave the room, shutting
the door behind him.
This time she could not hold in her cry  Master! NO! Please! Don t leave me like
this. I ll do it I promise, next time oh, please, MASTER! She pulled on her bonds,
trying to get loose, trying to get relief that would not come.
Phillip stood on the other side of the door, listening intently to Sarah s yells. She
was pleading, begging with him, but she was not panicking. That was his biggest
concern. She d done well when left  alone the week before, but the circumstances this
time were much different. Today, he had deliberately tied her in such a way that she
would become uncomfortable quite quickly.
But he needed her to take the time to think and to break down the walls she had
spent so many years building. Only when her shouting quieted did he leave the door,
circling around to watch her from the porch once more. The sight of her framed by the
double border of the window and the cage, aroused him again. Yet he denied himself,
knowing he needed to be alert to any changes in her predicament. Instead, he pulled up
a stool and satisfied himself with just watching.
Obedience and Discipline. The words took on importance in Sarah s thoughts when
it became obvious Phillip wasn t going to return just because she yelled at him to. She
could not help but think of the words as if they were written in big capital letters he
might as well have painted them on the back of the door. Obedience and Discipline.
This was all about the fact that she hadn t eaten that stupid breakfast. In frustration, she
pulled at her bindings again, her face twisting with the effort.
 Blast it! she muttered, reviewing her actions that morning. Was it such a big deal
that he d asked her to take her meal from his leavings? He d been respectful enough of
her to separate what he didn t intend to eat from what he did. And really, he hadn t
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eaten as much as he usually did. Phillip had deliberately left her the lion s share of the
food. And what had she done? Thrown it in the garbage.
She felt the tears welling inside her. She d disappointed him. That was the problem.
He d asked her, commanded her to do something simple and she d refused. When
she d admitted earlier that she hadn t eaten the food, she d seen the look in his eyes
the sadness.
Her thoughts went back to their first weekend together was it only a week ago?
He had explained a bit about what he was looking for in a slave. She thought she d
understood, but realized now, that her definition of the word did not go far enough.
She also thought she d understood the word  Obedience and realized that definition
did not go far enough either. What he wanted was total compliance on her part a total
submission of her own will to his.
And she wanted to give it to him. She stopped squirming as the realization came
home. Never had he said it would be easy he said they d test her limits. With a start,
she realized she understood what  Discipline was as well. This time in the cage was
again a test it gave her time to think about her  disobedience and put it in perspective.
He was, in effect,  disciplining her mind to accept or reject his commands.
Sarah swallowed hard, the need to come vanishing. After years of unexciting sex
with her husband, Phillip offered her a whole new lifestyle. He was prepared to give
her the bondage her innermost being always wanted, but had been afraid to admit to,
even to herself. What he asked in return, was her obedience when she was in his house.
Could she discipline herself to accept his demands? In her heart, she already knew the
answer: Yes, she wanted to be his slave to do what she was told to do. Hanging her
head, she prepared to wait out the rest of her time in the cage.
Time lost meaning for her and she didn t know if she d been there ten minutes or
twenty. Or an hour it was irrelevant. All she wanted now was a chance to show him
how sorry she was for her earlier behavior. She had disappointed him and the look in
his eyes haunted her.
Tears spilled now as Sarah realized just how much she was falling in love with
Phillip. He had touched a deeply hidden part of her, brought it into the light and shown
her it was all right. It was okay that she wanted to have someone look after her it was
okay that she didn t want to have to be the strong one every single moment. He was
willing to let her relax and just exist and for no other purpose than to be his slave and
to please him.
The room had grown dark by the time he reentered. He had spent the entire time
watching her; her tears almost made him give in and come to comfort her. In the long [ Pobierz całość w formacie PDF ]